Busy bee

So months have passed and you don't know about any of them.

Well, things are looking good.

Freelance going really well, "Everyone loves it!" is good feedback.

Money was well received too. Swapped some of it for a 500D, which is keeping me busy.

Started a secret project, which is coming along well, so the man says.

2 weeks today!!!

Off to see peeps this weekend

Off to see fams the next

Lots of forms to fill in

A promotion / pay rise

More forms to fill in

deadlines

washing lines

power lines

HAPPY

Been somewhere

update

Everything and Nothing

Things have happened, and things have not.

One thing has lead to another, and that has then continued into something else and so on.

My whole life has been leading up to this moment

I can't play the piano, and my boss steals my ideas

I had a great idea for some work earlier today, but that's not enough

I have 3 days this month where my diary says i'm free

They will be the hardest days

200 nothings

One more thing before bed

Even though it's now 4.32am.

Well worth it.................?

Dance is us....

This is one of my most successful projects to date.

It was shown at the British Museum Oct 07, and got a really positive response from the audience.

So much work in so little time though, so to me it looks unfinished. and there are sections that I wish I'd had more time to focus on.

But, one of my most memorable lessons I learnt as a student was that;

"If you reach the end of a project and can't think of anything you would change if you could, you have failed. Never be satisfied, always strive to better yourself next time round."

It's a lesson that I now try to pass on to my students.

Who's your Enemy?

Video I made for London band 'Black Cherry' a few years back:

New Tests

I went to make a cup of tea, and whilst the kettle was boiling I started working on this idea. 1 day later, here's how it looks so far.

Right then........ where's this cup of tea??

hmmmm

i keep having the urge to start something new

just waiting for the last missing piece of inspiration to come along and complete me.

i don't think just waiting is going to be enough this time.

the plan:

get clean, get organised, get inspired

where to start looking though?

PAC

Still waiting.............

Impatience is a problem best dealt with ASAP

but i think i can wait till monday

Budget

My only thoughts on the budget report from wednesday is who paid for the set design on the channel 4 news?

A true masterpiece!

but maybe i'm not....

well... not yet anyway

The system is broken

about time too

think i might head out for a bit on 2 wheels

it seems far too much effort

what T to wear?

garg!

been trying to get my website up and running for ages now.

got a message back from the hosting site saying they couldn't find any problems and that it was all working fine.

why then when you try to visit the site does it not work?

garg and flip to the lot

i can view it on my computer though and it's looking pretty special.

i'll leave it a few more days and see if it works itself out.

Babcia's Story - 2003

I still can't watch this all the way through, but that doesn't mean you can't

Blinded

This was made far too long ago.

"funny how time distorts things"

New Beard

nom nom nom

Mix up

A whole selection of thoughts, ideas, emotions and devotions today.

It's like i've been sifting for gold without asking for it.

Some didn't come out too well, some shocks along the way.

But there was no surprise as to who the winner is.

2 weeks to wait, but then will it be another 2 to get the results?

the world will be over by then

i feel fine about this now though

This looks awesome!!

2012 - Tate Modern extension - London

Season so far

Easter Weekend

It's been a truly amazing few days.

Seen some great people, seen some great sites, listened to some great music, and spent it all with the greatest girl.

Need to try and get my focus back now as i have a week of intense work to be getting on with.

Tomorrow i'm off to the city to meet up with some old friends to help me along the way.

little unsure as to how to play it though. First meeting is at 12.30 for an hour, and the second is it 19.30.

What to do in London for 6 hours. I'm sure i'll think of something.

Need to find somewhere to store my geek pack though. Can't be lugging that around all day.

We'll see how things go.

Twits

Charlie says......

5x5

Vodafone

i've signed my life away to Vodafone.

signed my day away by being on hold for 50mins.

finally get through and they tell me my contract doesn't run out till February, whereas i thought it was October.

this means i need an extra £100 to make up the £300.02 to buy my soul back from them.

Never sign up to anything for 2 years, especially something that has poor service, and no get out clause.

the phone i'm taking 2 years to pay off is not even worth it. I hated it after 2 weeks.

Stuck.

unless i just pay the money and run

hmmmmmm

Jayumcooper.co.uk

A&Eeeek

Need some more time and opinions to get my head around how i'm feeling.

The main feeling though right now is FEAR

Restless night

Had a terrible night's sleep just now.

Saying just now as it's 4.30am.

Yesterday i was all over the place, mentally that is, the majority of time i was sat on my sofa at home, laptop in place, trying to get through the many things that needed to be done. But my head just wasn't in it, so it jumped all over the place, mild giddy panics, back and forth, back and forth.

Then it's bedtime so off i trot and my head is still spinning, and as soon as the TV goes off and the conversations petter out "wham" my head's at it again, thinking up new plans, going over others, writing, processing, doodling. BUT NOT SLEEPING.

I have to have some form of distraction so the radio goes on, but i tune in too much and start to enjoy the shows, laughing along, caught up in the narrative. All the time knowing that in 4,3,2 hours i need to get up.

So it turns 3 am and i just give up. And i get up an hour and a half early.

My alarm has just gone off on my phone.

I'll be feeling this later, and it will all be my own fault.

MORNING KIDS

So writing a blog hey?

Well, yeah, thought i might yeah.

There was a time not that long ago where blogs were for young emo girls moaning about their lives, loves and loses. And we used to laugh and joke about this relatively new way of posting your inner most thoughts and worries in a very public way, and then the stress and the tears when they complain that everyone thinks they know them, and there's no such thing as a secret anymore.

Well things have changed, actually that sort of thing still goes on, and we can still laugh and joke about it, but now everyone has one of these things. And so now do i.

Yet i'm not going to be writing about my deepest darkest secrets. Someone asked how i was the other day, saying "your facebook read as if you were having problems and were down." To which my response was, "if i were down i wouldn't be plublicising it in anyway." Things like that in my mind have gotten out of hand. So this isn't going to be a place for secrets either. I'm very good at keeping secrets, and i plan to proove that.

What i will be writing about are just my thoughts and opinions, general day to day happenings in the life of an average man.

Fanx

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Birds, snakes and airplanes

i'm not afraid